Mu has been conspicuously absent in my spiritual life until very recently. I saw him at the edge of my consciousness when I meditated. I felt him shepherd me from afar. I knew he was there. But he had been distant. At first I felt abandoned; why has my teacher left me? Why has he made me fight through these trials alone and unsupported? Pretty childish attitude, isn’t it? And in a way I was very much the wounded child. I was suffering through the sudden loss of my mother, which forced me to relive my entire ontogeny, from infancy to adulthood. I literally needed to relearn aspects of myself in a new motherless context, as I am now a “motherless child.” This sounds far more grave than it really is. In many ways, the loss of a parent is the final act of growing up. This final act, I was not prepared to face, though, and I flailed around for the better part of month trying to find the horizon and claim a new normalcy for my life. This was a path and an experience I had to walk alone. I know that now. And in that understanding, Mu has returned, rather smugly, to lead me (and you) down a lighted path. Thank you, Mu.
You are experiencing expansion and a shift in consciousness. As you allow your perspective to broaden, the mechanisms of existence will at once become clear and fall away to allow your being to experience the actions of love more fully. As you broaden your consciousness, your capacity to express love and inner joy (the inner you) also expands. Allow this inner light and love to breathe. This is the most natural expression of yourself. Embrace any fear you feel at this time. These are only the expressions of an old energy and thought pattern that cling to your consciousness like tar. Shine your positive intention on these dark spaces. More fully into self-expression.
Do not intellectualize, judge or categorize this process. It is like no other; just as you are like no other. Experience the freedom of your uniqueness, experience the joy. I love you dear ones. Know that our souls are not strangers.