This was a fabulous show! Thanks to all of you who honored me with your calls and presence in the chat room!
This was a fabulous show! Thanks to all of you who honored me with your calls and presence in the chat room!
This chapter in “Staying” follows my first missing person’s case and lets us see the remarkable perseverance of the human soul. The names have been changed and all pertinent personal information has been redacted to preserve both the integrity of the ongoing imvestigation and the family’s privacy. I should also mention that I am NOT currently accepting any other such cases.
Staying: Chapter 6 – Celeste
Nothing in my time as a psychic prepared me for the phone call I got one day from my mentor and colleague, Julie. Julie had been working on a missing person’s case and, after nearly nine months of work, she needed a fresh perspective on the case and its details. I had never worked on something with so much at stake and I was very worried that I would give the family some kind of false hope or steer them down the wrong path, at the very least and waste the time of law enforcement at the worst. Truly, the idea of helping Julie terrified me. But the family was desperate for answers and I was (somewhat) assuaged by the fact that Julie was already working with them. I agreed and Julie gave me the details.
In 2007, Celeste* disappeared from her home leaving behind her children and husband. For all intents and purposes, she vanished without a trace. By all accounts, Celeste was the perfect mother and devoted wife; her disappearance was entirely out of character. Her husband, Frank*, not surprisingly, was placed squarely at the top of the suspect list. Despite Frank’s prominence within the community, there was a laundry list of reasons he was their prime suspect, not the least of which was the fact that his previous wives had met accidental and untimely deaths. Celeste’s family was searching for any information that would lead to the conviction of her killer and the recovery of her remains. I was to be part of a team of three other psychic mediums who would combine energy to attempt to bring forward information that would provide closure to Celeste’s family.
Since this was new territory for me, I didn’t know what to expect. It turns I didn’t have to wonder for very long. A few days prior to our scheduled meeting, Celeste visited me in the middle of the night, waking me from a sound sleep. She began giving me information about her manner of death, where her body was and the individuals involved in her disappearance. The information she was giving me was profound and incredibly detailed. I struggled to keep up with her and frantically tried to write down everything she was showing me. The more I sat there, the more it dawned on me – I wasn’t asking for this information, she was actively communicating with me. I don’t really know why I was so surprised by this; spirits actively communicate with me all the time. But the fact that she was reaching out and seeking help in the apprehension of her killer struck me as poignant. Even in death, she realized that the injustice had not only been done to her, but to her children and her family. She was speaking out for them and to bring them closure. This was profound for me. Not only did this posthumous action speak to her character, but to the determination of the human soul and the possibility that even in death, we can still have a voice and be a force for justice.
I need to mention here that this is not an exact science. Since I am working to bring information forth from someone who has died, I can’t get more precise information other than what they tell me. This means that just because we die, we do not automatically get all the knowledge of the Universe. Celeste could give me details of where she was and what happened to her, but only from her perspective. As it turns out, her recollection was incredibly good and the information she gave me was verified by her family.
Several nights after our midnight conversation, I met with the rest of the group to begin our work together. I wasn’t too surprised to learn that Celeste had been visiting with the other members of the group, as well. This allowed us to corroborate our information with one another and also to deepen our connection to the details of the case. At that point there was no going back, and we were just as committed to justice as she was. As the evening wore on, we moved from Celeste’s experience to the experience of her killer and I found myself delving ever deeper into the psyche of the man who killed her, learning that this man was undoubtedly her husband. The details that began to emerge were grisly and I began to get the feeling that Celeste was not the only victim. In fact, the longer I spent inside Frank’s energy, the more victims I found. All told, there were five women whom he had slain during his grisly career. Frank wasn’t just a murderer, he was a serial killer. These first few victims were invisible, most likely prostitutes, but definitely murdered as a part of a sadistic game – Frank enjoyed the chase as much as the kill. He was also too egotistical to think he would ever get caught, which is why he also victimized his wives. After a few hours of walking around inside the mind of a serial killer, I was exhausted. The other members of the group weren’t doing much better; this had been truly taxing work. Our psychic think tank had been able to validate each others’ visions and could also independently corroborate the work that had been done previously by Julie.
Frank’s ego ultimately did him in. Women were disposable to him, including his wives. The longer he went without getting caught, the bolder he got and the more it reinforced his superiority complex. He thought he was too smart to get caught. But he did. His sadistic game was unearthed by law enforcement and he was eventually convicted in the death of one of his first victims.
Currently, there is not enough physical evidence to convict Frank in Celeste’s death. Unfortunately, all officials have to go on now is circumstantial evidence, but that case continues to build. It is my belief that Celeste’s body will soon be uncovered and her family will soon have closure. Until then, we will continue to work to bring justice to her and her family.
This morning’s radio show was all about what it means to stand in your own power, and more specifically not allowing someone to take it away from you. So many times we give our power and autonomy over to individuals who are not deserving of it. We even do this for situations that may be entirely imaginary (“If I do ____, my family/friends/colleagues will____”). Don’t be afraid to be authentic – it is the most natural expression of You. When we expend our energy (or power) in covering up who we are, there is less energy (or power) to devote to living the divine expression of ourselves. Just being yourself should be effortless; expressing your true self is where you use the energy. But the best part is that this energy builds and builds. Every time you choose to be You, you feed the energy back into Yourself, each time becoming more present and more powerful. It is a positive feedback loop and the ultimate renewable energy source. To hear more click here or on the link below.
Have a safe, healthy and happy Thanksgiving! See you all on Monday, 11/27 for an all new radio show.
PS – You get bonus points if you get the totally nerdy 80’s reference in the photo above.
Aha moments come in all shapes and sizes. They can be a tiny spark of imagination or they can be earth-shattering epiphanies. I would say that my recent Aha moment fell somewhere toward the latter part of the spectrum.
The other day I was multitasking my way through my to-do list with the TV in the background intent on keeping one ear open for Oprah’s Lifeclass. I know that some of you may have stopped reading right there and began rolling your eyes. Well, knock it off. It’s a great show.
Anyway, this particular episode, “Lesson Three: You Become What You Believe,” featured several celebrities who have followed their belief in themselves because they knew that, above everything, they were meant to succeed in their chosen field. One of these people is Jim Carrey. During the show he talked about an innate sense of inner knowing about his future success. He speaks about it in terms of visualization, but I believe its much bigger than that. It was divine guidance (inner knowing) combined with his willingness to follow it and trust it that allowed him to gain success. He had the dream, he saw it and he followed his gut (aka divine guidance/inner knowing) to take the steps to get him where he needed to go.
And here’s the Aha moment; he said, “You can’t just visualize it and then go eat a sandwich.” This is the difference between Jim Carrey and people who have not successfully employed their favorite self-help (read: law of attraction) teachings. Once you have that vision, you have to act on it from a place of divine inspiration.
Very successful contemporary books and movies will have the average person believe that they can simply sit down for an hour every day and think about how they can become millionaires and then POOF, they’re rich. Yes, the Universe wants you to have everything you desire and more, but it doesn’t work like that.
Why? Here’s why:
1. The ego gets in the way during visualization
No, seriously. It does. When all you do is sit and visualize the life you want, you often pull those desires from a place of ego, meaning superficial. In order to get the ego out of the way, you need to think about what it would mean to you to have the life you want (my own lifecoach, Susan Hamilton, asks me this all the time). It could mean security, freedom, financial stability or health. Think about what having the life you want would actually mean to you. When you do this, it comes from a place of divine inspiration. You’re thinking about things that make you excited, you’re igniting your passion, you’re following your bliss. The inspiration to take the next step (e.g., get off the couch and stop eating that sandwich) will naturally come from there.
2. Visualization is extremely limited
Think about this for a second – how many times have you heard someone who appears to be very fortunate proclaim, “This is beyond my wildest dreams?” I know I’ve lost count. If these people had limited their desires to just what they could imagine in that limited moment from a limited perspective, they would have gotten a limited outcome. Visualization engages the human mind (the ego mind) and tends to neglect the presence of things like miracles or things that it has not already experienced (which, are often miracles). It also prevents us from focusing on our inner excitement. Inner excitement is just a hyper version of intuition. Following that excitement means that you’re following your intuition (remember: divine guidance). Following that intuition will lead you down the path of success and enable you to find you’re life’s work or life’s passion.
3. Visualization causes you to focus only on the ending
During Lesson Three of Oprah’s Lifeclass, Jim Carrey also said that he wrote himself a $10 million check and post-dated it three years. In three year’s time, he found out that he was going the be making $10 million on his next movie. This is an amazing story, and I’m sure that a lot of people watching that show got out their checkbooks and did the very same thing. But here’s what I think is really going on. Jim Carrey didn’t put that check in his wallet and pine over it for three years wondering when he could cash it. He did the very thing that was going to be making him the $10 million because, really, it wasn’t simply about the money. Having that money meant he was a successful actor and that he was living his true passion and the highest expression of himself. The money was simply symbolic of that passion and that success. He wasn’t focused on the endgame, which was the check. He was focused on getting up everyday and working at his craft because he knew innately that that was what he was meant to do.
So what does all of this mean? It means you need to stop simply visualizing a way to make the Universe bend to your will. Don’t visualize yourself being a successful writer and then never write. Don’t visualized that recording contract and then never sing. First, think about, and I mean REALLY think about, what having the life you want will mean. Will it mean that you are stable, healthy, famous or an astronaut, singer, actor or writer? What will it MEAN to you? Once you get clear on what it means to you, you will get clear on what you NEED to do. You will get inspired to move in one way or another. Trust that. You will be building faith in yourself and faith in the ability to manifest the things in your life that are truly meaningful to you.
Love and Light,
I just want to let you know about my events and appearances occurring in November. Stop by or log on!
11/16/11 – 10 am PST, Radio show on Blog Talk Radio Click to Listen
11/20/11 – 10am-6pm – Holistic Living Fair, San Jose Airport Hilton
11/21/11 – 10am PST Radio show on Blog Talk Radio Click to listen
11/23/11 – 10am PST Radio show on Blog Talk Radio Click to listen
I’ll also be at the Holistic Living Expo in Santa Cruz on December 3rd!
This morning, I was awakened very early by my phone ringing incessantly. It was my boyfriend, Jeff. He had heard from someone at work that there was a fire in our apartment building and was frantically trying to make sure that I wasn’t sleeping through some kind of catastrophe. Indeed, all I could hear was the peal of emergency sirens outside of my bedroom window. After some frantic investigation, we learned that the fire was in an adjacent, and thankfully unoccupied, building. I hung up the phone and made to flip on the morning news, when the Angelic Realm chimed in. “We would like to speak,” They said. “Can I get some coffee first?” I answered. Since the Angelic Realm is compassionate (and has a wicked sense of humor, what with all the sirens), I got caffeinated and then got a pen. This was going to be big. And indeed, it is. Here is the transcript of Their message.
The Cycle is almost complete; your energetic framework is nearly done. Just as a house needs a frame before it can become a home, so too does this new energetic space. But you are building quickly and rising exponentially. Do not feel discouraged if you think you sense struggle. Remember the sense of the struggle creates the struggle itself. Relax into this new reality. You are fulfilling your Earthly contract simply by being here. Like the caterpillar in the chrysalis, you’re time has almost come to spread your wings and enter the New Earth, the New Home, the New Energy, the New You. Delight and revel in this change and transformation, for you are magnificent and reaching ever higher.
“We must tell those of you who are eager to know, that the energetic lattice work of the New Earth is crystalline in structure and magnetic in nature. This structure resembles Metatron’s Tree of Life, and indeed he is one of the architects imparting new information to be unlocked in the upcoming age.
“The New Age will be a Golden Age for all life. There will be three stages, 1. The Era of Healing, 2. The Era of Re-education, 3. The Era of Discovery/Exploration. We cannot tell you how long each era will last. This is up to the collective Human consciousness. You will improvise on the script.
“Please be assured that you are entering an age of Miracles and you are safe and secure. You are loved and honored and revered.
“Namaste, dear ones.”
Lots and lots from the Angelic Realm today in preparation for 11/11/11! If you can’t join in, I’ll transcribe the information later on today!